ok exams are over... mct was horrifying and it really taught me a good lesson.. now i've so many things to do.. i jus wanna do everything that i like!
things to do
+shopping (list will be out soon)
+lose weight
+exercise.. maybe get a tan again?
+clear desk
+meet up with everyone asap before the madness starts again
+drive better
+read The Wedding
+read more books
+start to prepare for SATs
+look for new tuition assignments
+sleep more
+drink more water
+learn the guitar
+manicure and pedicure
+be more organised
+start saving for kuantan trip
+change a new blog skin?
+and everything else that need to be done
easy tonight
five for fighting
You were wrong You were right
YYou were wrong
You were right
You are gone
Tonight
You were free
So alive
You were wrong
You were right
You were down
You could see
You wore hearts
for me
You were sharp
Sharp as knives
You were wrong
You were right
Shot down: said you never had the chance
Took a ride on a suicide romance
Could have sworn there was somebody home
To facilitate the great unknown
Woman, I ain't going to meet you anywhere
Don't know where I'm going yet:
But I sure am getting there
Shotgun fire: anybody home
I got two dimes in the telephone
Alright: It's not easy tonight
You were bound
You were free
You wear black
for me
You were dark
Dark as night
You were wrong
You were right
Shot down: said you never had the chance
Took a ride on a suicide romance
Could have sworn there was somebody home
To facilitate the great unknown
But woman, I ain't going to meet you anywhere
Don't know where I'm going yet:But I sure am getting there
Shotgun fire: anybody home
I got two dimes in the telephone
Alright: It's not easy tonight
She's In. Over my head:and it's not easy it's not easy tonight
Shotgun fire: anybody home
I got two dimes in the telephone
Alright: It's not easy tonight
You were free:Now your not:You were free
and everyone's dying..
lynn's grandad just passed away on friday..
douglas' dad passed away..i think yesterday..
dale's good frisbee mate died in his arms while playing frisbee..
you gotta agree.. life's fragile. you gotta do what you gotta do..
suicide.. all of a sudden, seem too surreal.
i want a big change... a big change... a change of life. life is too short to care about consequences. just one life. gotta live it.
time to bathe.. and start. the horror of horrors.
General Paper is in 1 1/4 hr away.. i think i'm quite dead for my MCT.. yup. dead
yes. deaD!!!! i think i'll probably get D7 for GP, E for Math, E for Geog and F for Econs. yes, that's how the thing always go for econs. i'm a prophet for my own results. many times, they're true. ok i think i'm concerned bout the whole grades thing. i'm scare.. afraid to see that bitch again. but why be scared since it's inevitable?
God Bless.
i need to shop and throw away and clear my ever dirty desk. i wanna change a desK!! yes. and a new wardrobe.. a completely new wardrobe...
exactly 6 days to my first march common test paper.. physical geography..
in the midst of revision.. there's only one goal.. to pass all papers.. just to pass all papers.. i hope i can.. i hope i can handle the next 6 days.. frustrations and anger.. sadness and joy..
but i know in the midst of all, you're there.. for me. hugs..
ps: hey yiting, sorry i have to keep postponing our dates... i guess now i can only meet u all after my exams?? sorry sorry.. really busy.. hope everything's going fine for u now.. hugss.. miss u.
listening to emi fujita makes me feel above the world.. somewhere peaceful definitely exists in this world..
she reminds me of that day.. that day which i heard her.. mph.. with tingky.. reading books.. her voice is just so peaceful.. brings me to a higher level.. make me believe there's a world out there.. a big world for me to explore.. and i shouldn't be bonded by anything.. yes anything..
moon river
Moon River, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style, someday
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Where ever you're goin'
I'm goin' your way
Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end
Waitin' round the bend
My Huckleberry friend
Moon River and me
someday i can fly away.. i know i can
in other words i guess, everyone just seems so fake to me right now.
and i don't think i can take it right now. it's just too much. way too much.
so so tired.. and scared.. most of my friends did well.... namely yiting, mandy, ting kuang, celine, ivan, shirley, moses, kenneth, louisa, rou wan, lynn, yanhui, valene... blah blah blah.. i bet the whole world did well. haha but i guess there're some who aren't satisfied with their results... yeapp... oh well.. what to do.. nothing can change this result.. jus accept it and move on and make the right decision in which uni courses to go into..
i better work hard... donny's got competition tmr.. i hope it'll be good and fine..
i feel like i'm disintegrating.. i dunno why.. sometimes i wonder.. whether some friends are worth keeping... i know in this life, i've very few close friends... i think pple i know frm college aren't actually as good as they seem when they were in college. i dunno. maybe pple change.. maybe i'm jus too engrossed with my own relationship that i leave out the life for other people.. maybe cuz i stayed back in college and there's hardly any time to meet up with my friends.. or maybe, in the very first place, i've never been close to anyone in college.. i think sometimes i feel sad when i read other pple's blogs.. they seem really close to their college pals and all... i start to wonder.. how come i'm never close to my college friends? i guess the only things which link us together were shopping, gossips and shopping. in other words, we only want to look good. these were my ex yr 2 friends. and there were only 3.
this year, my yr 2 friends, somehow, i dunno, showed their true colours.. realising how cruel and scheming this world of ours has become. i waS really distraught bout the whole college friends thing, new and old. i was awfully disgusted over the selfishness of my friends, and the little respect they give the word 'trust'.
i'm so disillusioned now. with the world. at least with tjc. i hope this regime ends soon.
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