WORK SUCKS

can you believe sitting down for 8 hours without talking much.. taking in cigarette smoke as though you're dying to be the next dying passive smoker. this job is hell tiring. Grace(my fellow colleague) got the boot today as she did not wear covered up shoes and did not tie up her hair.. and the last straw came when we both were using the phonE.. bleah. this is bad. i think i'll be the next to go. bloody hell. such a lousy day. can't stanD it. 56 bucks.. so hard to earN.

12 days to go.

yesterday
met yiting and yanshan for dinner at kenny rogers'!! nice food. we ate like a piG. not really like a pig, but our actions were like one. haha... we were too hungry. that's all. yeaa.. haha i feel like eating macaroni and cheese again. yummy.

now
yawnn.. so tired. fluffy's at holiday inn enjoying his dinner. i'm still in the smoked tshirt. need to bathe soon.. and sleep. yes. sleep. hoping don will come over after dinner. fat hope. i think he's gonna get grounded soon.. haha for skipping a particular tutorial/lecture.. i think he did that many times. haha.. cuz i never hear him talk about that lesson before.

yawnn.. sleepy sleepy
can't wait for tmr nite.. going out.. and tuesday nite.. going out..

feel like clubbing tmr suddenly. but i don't think i can.

a cheating heart
loving you
never revealing more
the things you see
the words you hear
the goddess you admire
they are not real
they are not real

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

now, it's a time to cry

bleah... haven't posted anything in days.
life's been not bad so far...
frm a bedok kid since young, to a katong kid, then to a siglap kid, now i'm an orchard kid. haha.. ok not that..but just been haNging out in town every single day since last friday?!! ok.. after tuition it was lunch with flufFy, then it was back to tuition, either that, it'll be hanging out at kinokuniya reading books and checking out new design stuff. love designing. no doubt about it. feel like involving myself in every design trade. ok in fact, in every single trade.... haha..
work's starting..
signed up for AMORE.. finally. time to lose the BIG piece of flab on my tummy. can't wait. need the boD. haha.. just don't want to be sized M.. oh well..
sigh..

went out with brian today. he's like the first friend i've gone out with.. as in yr 2 friend after sooo long. miss the people in my life. everyone who makes my life smile. =) people are isolating themselves due to the damned As. it'll be over soon. i shld enjoy myself as much with these people before i start work. yes. i'll be taking As next year. and i'll be isolating these people. haha like they bother.

last night was 31/03 class bbq. been a long time since i attended bbq. haha the feeling is good. i love bbq. and the aftermath. love the part when we started singing all the disney classics. haha.. clemEnt! happy belated birthday, once again honEY! love this clasS. much better.

oh i think i got the good progress reward! yay. 200 bucks in my pocket. yummy. more clothes and more enjoyable food. ok food's a sin now. totally. i feel so fat. but i just can't resist anything good. BAH.

just checked friendster. nothing new. found sad stuff though. yes. it's driving me to some form of sadness. kinda. i think i will write about it.

maybe later.

something's wrong. i've yet to figure it out.

saturday!!

morning
woke up in the morning, got ready for shen ling and gillian's church wedding. it was great! everything was neat and grit. very very very sweet. saw don's godma and his other aunts and uncles.. really cool.. all the pretty and gorgeous ladies, even at this age they still look stunning. gillian is absolutely vavavoOM! haha.. church was fine.. ok 2nd church wedding i've attended in my whole entire life. don's the sweetest. the mass was interesting... reverend was cool. the way he talks. witty.

afternoon
went to watch don jam.. with some other band he's not close to. i think the band is called 'love always opposite'. pretty cool band. the lead is good. stage presence is there. hope they get in anyway. oh the jamming place was at bukit timah. we had to walk a hell long distance to get there.. yawn. we were both so tired when we got there. totally.. ok after jamming, it was a long bus ride to gramps. don sent me there before he went home to prepare for fullerton dinner... at gramps, i ate non stop, and slept a lil.. the tapioca soup was sooo good! can't help it but had two bowls. then all of a sudden, while i was eating longans, dearest baby called and told me his godma demanded me to go for dinner. i was like... hey i just ate. how can i leave now when my mom just reacheD??! but i went anyway...cabbed back, rushed like mad, cabbed down to fullerton haha.. as usual, the people at fullerton were gorgeous. gillian, aunt jar, godma, aunt regine.. uncle sia with his 2k armani suit, deborah looking ever hot in her dress and of cuz, baby looking so charming in his stunning suit. love it to bits. fullerton food was finee. haha not so fantastic actually but the interior is really nice. very elegant, very classy. felt like a big shot walking around. haha yikes too bad didn't take any photos with don there. i think we did. one... by uncle richard. ok maybe he'll develop it for us! haha but i think i'll look horrible. yucks. hahaha.. ok hate my face.

saturday, good day.

i love the new black eyed pea song

Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up

[Chorus]
We try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still isn't the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
For tryin to be your laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy

Girl, me and you were just fine (you know)
We wine and dine
Did them things that couples do when in love (you know)
Walks on the beach and stuff (you know)
Things that lovers say and do
I love you boo, I love you too
I miss you a lot, I miss you even more
That's why I flew you out
When we was on tour
But then something got out of hand
You start yellin when I'm with my friends
Even though I had legitimate reasons (bull shit)
You know I have to make them evidence (bull shit)
How could you trust our private lives girl
That's why you don't believe my lies
And quit this lecture

[Chorus]

Why does he know she gotta move so fast
Love is progress if you could make it last
Why is it that you just lose control
Every time you agree on takin it slow
So why does it got to be so damn tough
Cuz fools in lust could never get enough of love
Showin him the love that you be givin
Changing up your livin
For a lovin transistion
Girl lip so much she tryin to get you to listen
Few mad at each other has become our tradition
You yell, I yell, everybody yells
Got neighbors across the street sayin
“Who the hell?!?”
Who the hell?
What the hell's going down?
Too much of the bickering
Kill it with the sound and

[Chorus]

Girl our love is dyin
Why can't you stop tryin
I never been a quitah
But I do deserve betta
Believe me I will do bad
Let's forget the past
And let's start this new plan
Why? Cuz it's the same old routine
And then next week I hear them scream
Girl I know you're tired of the things they say
You're damn right
Cuz I heard them lame dame excuses just yesterday
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
It was the same damn thing
Same ass excuses
Boy you're usless
Whhoooaaaa

[Chorus]

Stop the talking baby
Or I start walking baby
Is that all there is [repeat]

went shopping today. realised how much weight. unwanted weight i've gained. dammit. i need amore soon. think i'll go join it....
i need a new wishlist. don't think i'm gonna work. just gonna slack and study a bit. prepare for next yr..

tmr i'm going for a church wedding of someone whom i'm totally not related to. weird huh. thanks baby. i've nothing to wear. i wanted the red long skirt from island shop but it's just too ex. and when i decided to get it at millennia walk, realised that they don't carry that design anymore. only at tangs. dammit. not a good day. need to sleep early tonight. just in case i don't wake up tmr. yawn... i need a new bag. considering the roxy one. but i doubt so. think i'm pass the roxy, rip curl and stussy stage. pretty weird. i can't really relate to topshop now. seems like the good thing now is island shop. i like the loose clothes. maybe i'm getting fatter. that's y.


fluffy's attached to some big architecture firm. which is good i guess. but that means less time spent. sigh. imagine mon to fri working.. and golf on sat. church on sunday. suddenly yiwen fits nowhere. detrimental to the always-bored yiwen. yawn. maybe i shld get a job?? the nike one at shaw.. which is near to him? maybe maybe..

not much. jus miss the times when i was a lil thinner.
the times when my tummy's a lil flatter.
the times when my thigh's a lil less flabby.

the times. when i go sailing.
the times. when i go for movie like almost everyday.
the times. when my impulsiveness get the better of me.
the times. when i just don't bother about anything else in the world.

i'm just a girl,
whose life is in a swirl.
life hasn't gone perfect,
neither has it been wretched.
things just aren't the same,
i feel that my emotions are insane.
the more i ponder the more i feel,
the more i think i need a heal.
is this true love?
the guy with the golf glove.
the one who drives me mad,
the one who knows his mac.
the one who 'pokes' non stop,
the one who don't eat lamb chops.
i really have no idea where this is going to.
this love so pure yet obscure.
when the passion lost its thrill
when lovey dovey runs downhill,
will this love still be strong as drill?
when the stories run out,
when there is no where to walk about,
will this love begin to be a doubt?
the problem with myself,
i always fear of people leaving,
and i'll be left with all the grieving.
never had i dare to give my whole heart out,
until he came along and messed it about.
the never ending kisses,
the ever warming hugs,
no one taught me how good things can be,
mommy never told me.
i realised how much i never want him to go away.
i now know how much i want him to stay.
when the passion dries up
the way fashion pass out,
i know i'll still be loving him,
out and throughout.
it's more than the words said,
it's more than promises made,
it's more than anything in the world.
it's about the love.
the love we both shared,
the good ol' love we both have.

watched ong bak today with fluffy at tm. it was quite a cool show. with all the actions and muay thai and all. and of cuz the buddha. now i'm jus back home stoning. thinking of whether to clear my desk and start doing my gp homework. since promos, homework and lectures and tutorials and mostly, school, have been at a standstill. i don't even bother copying things from my friends. feeeling so lazy again. still thinking of taking geog S. goodness me. can't wait to go town and shop till i drop again. will make my wishlist. yawn. i need a break... 11 more days to freedom. pw oral presentation's on the 13th. i hope everything will be good.

praying for derek and vanessa now.
for their exams of cuz.

praying for anyone whom i think needs it.

i love ash. maybe jus one song. life less ordinary.

i want, a life... less ordinary. and then, my life can be at a standstill. forever

my favourite song ever..

life less ordinary
ash


I smoke myself into a haze in the afternoon
Enveloped heart, and the air is cool
Put on your dress, white Goddess
And Settle in as the weather folds
In the slow haze of the afternoon
Swaying hips, made like a gun
Blackest sails, the most beautiful

Star, In the world, in the air, on my tongue
Before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun

So, Take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again
So, What is it worth?, I'll sell my soul, what is it worth?
Only you know

You were conceived in my heart, came like a dream
To save me from my mortality
Put on your dress, white Goddess
And settle in as the weather folds
Our lives will be entwined, even when I die
You'll see me through 'till the end of time
No earthly bride, the most beautiful

Star, In the world, in the air, on my tongue
Before my eyes, beyond the stars, beneath the sun

So, Take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again
So, What is it worth?, I'll sell my soul, what is it worth?
Only you know

Take me in your arms again, lead me in my dreams again
So, What is it worth?, I'll sell my soul, what is it worth?
I'll sell my soul, what is it worth?
I'll sell my soul, what is it worth?

You and I Both
JASON MRAZ


Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.


you and i both loved.

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