darnit. my sat scores suck. bloody big time.

fuck.


june ct
i'm suddenly not prepared for anything. had econs and gp papers today. gp suck the biggest time. i hate the fact that i'm back in school and not taking examinations together with 32/02. feeling is weiRd. but i have more fun in 31/03.
i feel so drained suddenly...

leo
met up with him today before he goes off to australia.. suddenly realised i misssssssssssssssss him sooooooo much and will miss him much much more when he goes to australia. yikes. dunno why, after so many 'flings' and a few more serious than 'flings' relationships, i go back to square one. it's so obvious there is still this thing between us. we admitted it. but nothing is done. sigh. i feel so fucked up suddenly. he already has someone. bahhhhhhhhhhhh

not in a good mood
econs sucked.
gp sucked.
actually they still suck.


aaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


*cries*

so gonna check my sat scored now.. darn scared.

1.30 am - 5 am

woke up at 1.20am to STUDY!!!!!!! was intending to do some math anD definitely geog.. but ended up reading and doing drqs for geog.. on mass movementS and slopes... had interruptions(icq-ing with sarah and brian..calling 1633 to check the damned phonebills..dozing off) oh well.. at least one chap down. slept at 5..woke up jus an hr ago.. 4 hrs of sleep. i hope it'll last me throughout the day.. gonna go for my med checkup at SGH... mommy'S following me.. meetin liting to stuDy later..yawn..

yesterday was not bad on the whole.. saw quite a few people at starbucks.. saw alex loon toO. finally he said hi to us. last time he was so daaaoooooooo.. can't stand it. haha... and i couldn't remember songyu's name until i match heR up with jeremy. haha dunno why i'm thinking of him suddenly.. hope he got out of his meSS. but doesnt seems like it. oh well.. he kinda deserve all these things toO.. who cares. he's out.

leo will be going aust really soon. dun tink i can say my farewell to him! haha.. hope he has tons of fun there. kinda miss him actually... sigh.. and i hate the feeling at this time. it's so much like last yr. but less intense..

listened to a song last night on gold 90.5 pretty much represent us right now! oh well....
i guess... it's all over... no matter how hard i pray.. it's over..

"Tainted Love"

They say love is like a flower;
which will bloom and wither
To me, love is not such one
but it is eternal and forever

Love has many faces
perverse, blinded or true.
I had been through phases
that shimmers inbetween just two.

But you taught me to see
with eyes unclouded,
The foolishness of my creed,
that would have drowned me
in my mind's sea.

I admit my love for you was just two;
Blinded but true.
I fell truly & blindly for love,
but that was not you.

Only when the 'sight' hit upon me,
like a hammer on red iron,
Did my heart start to sing with glee.
For i had escaped this prison
That shackled my only passion.

My love for you has evolved;
now i am in between the two.
more than a friend, but less
than a romeo for you.

It is in this limbo where i find bliss,
serenity and everlasting peace,
For this is the place where eternity lives.
Where love flows like a stream,fluid with ease.

Love like this,i truly believe,
should be shared and not held back.
I want to heal the hearts of a million souls
before tarnished love starts taking its toll.

I start with you and it seems
we work well together as a team.
If not for you i would never have seen
that i'm more than a teen.

So now i say my heartfelt thanks
to you my truly good friend,
and i promise you before u feel angst
You will have this helping hand.




isn't this poEm sweeeeeeeeeeet?????? *gleams*

i hope i can pass

i really hope i can pass this common test. i better pass. so much pressure. oh no... if i dun pass, i'll not go for drawing lessons.

went to MP today, saw junxi there. as pretty as ever and as skinny as ever.
but character overrides the beauty.

flipped through physical geog.. really just flipped through and tried to understand but failed. i guess i'll jus pretend that i've studied all. and revise again on saturday or something..
gonna do some transformation of curves now.. i hope i can memorise everything..

went to see a doc finally.. mom let him see the thing behind my ear.. he said why never go for treatment earlier. need operation.. gooDness. money wasted.. sigh.. i hate my immune system, and the blood in me. alwayS so weak.. how many times have i been hospitalised, how many times have i had operationS? maybe more than normal people.. money money money is always a big factor. sigh. hope everything will be cheaper. haha i'm getting more lame.

now i don't even dare to ask my parents for money for drawing classes. sigh. but i really don't want to give up drawing. dilemma!! hahha

my speaker is spoilt

oh no.. my comp sound system is kinda spoilt. there's this weird sound coming out.. hMm.. i wonder what happened to it. better switched it off anD let it rest..

Say Goodbye


In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you



Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies


In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, stnding on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last



Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies


And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel



Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

frrrrreeeeeeaaaaaaaak pre exams jitters

it's less than a week to common test. in fact there're 6 days left to the much dreaded common test. i shld be confident, since i've done it so many times before... (yea..and got nothing but Fs).. this time round, i definitely put in more effort.. i try to study everyday now.. though it's last minute.. try to finish up all chapters for econs, doing math tutorials... reading and doing DRQs for geog.. everything!! but i'm so scared.. that i'll fail again this time around. if i fail..oh no. haf to see the principal agaiN!!! goodness..

i pray i won't fail.. i pray i won't fail.. i pray i won't fail..

Alas, how easily things go wrong!
A sigh too much, or a kiss too long,
And there follows a mist and a weeping rain,
And life is never the same again.

From Sweet Peril by George MacDonald

excited
my dad n mom have agreed to let me go for the drawing course. i just signed up online. yay.
can't wait. hope everythin will be fine. =)

had 2 bowls of beancurd..

mandy's sis getting married.. so sweet..
i didn't know yiting had such a hard time in sec 1 sec 2.. feel so sorry and all. must learn how to appreciate pple more now. yeaa...

so not in the right mood

everything seems wrong suddenly. maybe i feel inferior. very inferior. about everything.
not physically fine too. i'm just too sick. there's more to studying. definitely. i know that. but only i know it. why can't they see it?
what's wrong with an air stewdardess, a fashion designer, a photographer. or doing arts management?

i really need a new life.

i feel so bimbotic suddenly. everyone was right. i'm a bimbo. i love and hate to be one. i need to study. i need to break free. i need to be thin. i need to be fit. i need to get out of love webs. i need to get out of crushes. i need a totally new wardrobe. i need to improve my SAT scores. i need to start getting work done. i need to read more. i need to appreciate more. i need to love more. i need to feel more. i need to be accepted. i need to reconnect with people i miss. i need.. i need..



i need a new life. and you. now

mango sale
woke up at 7 am today just to go for this sale with liting and sarah.. so excited. haha.. woke up but was feeling kinda sick. took my temperature. the reading stopped at 34.8 degrees. this made me wonder if my thermometer is spoilt. but nonetheless, my spirit was not dampened. haha.. when i reached suntec, there were many many many many people queueing up already. luckily liting n sarah were already in the queue.. and we were the next batch to go in! haa.. tooK tons of skirts and dresses and tops to try.. there were so many women inside. haha.. and everyone of them was holding heaps of clothings!! i found one racer back top. khaki colour.. 16 buCks!! remembered i bought one for 33 last time. so decided to buy tt! since it's sized XS.. fittable. tried 2 pairs of heels toO. one black and one beige. dunno which one to buy so drop em.. decided to go tO the raffles one and check it out.. after getting all the things we want to buy,
me- racer back top, liting- slippers, sarah- slippers too, we decided to cut queue!! haha liting asked this couple to help her pay since she's only buyinG one iTem. haha the nice couple let her cut queue... and u know wut?? the sales girl at the cashier actually put a top into liting's bag!! so liting got a top paid by the couplE! ahhaa.. but the top was XS. so it'S mine. *gRinz* hahhaa.. we headed down to raffles city next and tried to lie our way in without queuing up but faileD. haha.. so we'd to queue. oh wut a queueing day. everywhere must queue. haha.. tRied the dRess i wanted to buy last time.. but i dunno if i shld, decided to come with my mom next time. haha found the beige heeLs and bought it. haha liting bougHt a skirt which she looks really slim in! haha yeaaa

finally got out of mango.. and went to subway and had our lunch!! haha.. yuMMy!
oh saw douglas with his gF emilY! hhaa.. he was giving liting this 'raised eyebrows' looks. haha dAmn funny.
emily looks guai.. jusT as alison said. haha so cute. oh wEll.. after lunch, liting anD sarah went to orange julius to study(they are going for the SARS concert) while i made my way home.. went to fcuk fiRst and den found out the black bag i wanted to buy yesteday was GonE!!!!!! hahaha oh well..noT fated with the baG i gueSS!! hahhaa

yawn, great day so far.. hope nothing bad happens later. things always go wrong for me after i enjoy myself and stuff. yeaa.. gonna study math now. hahaa

yiting
yes. u're the only one who reads my bloG. haha actually u can give yS the add. i dun mind both of u reading iT! haha. yeaa.. oh i tot i saw aLphis today at bedok mrt station. i gave ys a call immediately but den she says it's not him. hahah yeaa.. oh the gF thing. yar! all their optioNs all so 'not-choosable' kind.. haha yeaa.. oh btw, uR sis' job how?? i prayed for her manZ! hope things are greeaatt. haha yeaa.. study hard gal. we're pErfeCt girlfrienDS!!! hahhahaaa

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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this test is wrong?? i hope it's right. hahah

in my life

There are places I'll remember all my life
Though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these mem'ries lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I'll love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I'll love you more
In my life I'll love you more

today
yawn
woke up at 7.30, 8.30, 9, and then 10
but lay on bed until it was 11
bathed and went out with mommy
went to fcuk and saw this really new and nice fcuk tee shirt *gleamS*
then walked to mango, realised it was closed!! they're having a major sale tmR!! yuMMY!!! haha..
immediately picked up my phone and called liting.. arranged to go to the outlet at compass point! haha
oh well..wonder if i'll get anything from the sale, hopefully the white button up shirt..and the skirt and the pair of heels
*EXCITED*
went to sisley and tried on the same top. will decide betw the red top or the fcuk top. same cutting.. prices around the same too. haha guess which one i'll get in the end.
went to town..decided to get my kaya toast and let mom try. haha she said it was gooD! haha.. saw bel and her mom toO. her mom had this really cool pink n orange eye shadow on!! definitely funky! haha =Pp bel looks skinner..as usual. haaa
went to warehouse! and tried on this really really nice purple satin tube dress.. but too bad, the size was too biG!!! i need a size 8. and there wasn't any left cuz this was on sale. ggrrr... i hate sales sometimes, u never get your own size. NEVER.
went to topshop. goodness. the denim pelmet wid flower patch skirt is sooooooooooooooo cooL! totally love it. mom toO. but it's too EX!! 86 buckS!!!
went to CK Tangs, tried on clothes..tried on this kate hudson dress in 10 things i hate about you. look damn sweet. haha mom says so too.but it's 98 bucks and i know i'll only wear it once. mom toO. she wanted to get this ALLURE top.. but it was ex and transparent at the back. haha so she decided to drop it. haha since it was revealing to her.. i thought it was fine.
went to bugis next. had my dinner there. yeaa. followed her to OG. bought nothing there too

on the whole, bought nothing. she neither. hahaha.. wut a day. but had fun trying out clothes. tons of clothes. tmr will be better i hope. i will get something. need to rest soon. get ready for mango sale! haha..
keep thinking bout the skirt. i mean the topshop one. will someone buy it for me? hhahaa.. yiting, u're the only one reading my blog. hahaha ok get the hinT!! hahaha kidding..

emi fujita - love star (japanese)

final wish list
-a denim mini (hopefully roxy, ripcurl)
-a white skirt (hopefully mango)
-levis 593 (dark denim size 27)
-a white button up blouse (mango has it..but 66 bucks)
-black slippers
-flare white skirt for church wedding
-dark coloured baby G
-new running shoes (i want adidas this time)
-fitting white tube
-and something formal to wear for formal dinners

today
-woke up at ten..again..imagine the time wasted
-cleared my table. more conducive for study now

met liting for lunch at breks.. we shared fish and chips and seafood pasta. both came in very very big servings.. haha.. and best, we had free flow of salad and cakes and brownies and ice cream!!! haha yuMMy!! it only cost us 10 each!! definitely value for money!!! walked to esplanade with the intention of going to merlion park! haha liting wanted to catch a last glimpsE of her 'ahem'.. but when we were there, he was gonE!! we walked and walked, then realised he was already on the bus 608 with the rest!! a wild goose chase commenced. haha we ran all the way from one fullerton to the bus stop outside esplanade,hoping the bus pass by but to no avail.. almost puked out whatever i had eaten.. went to suntec in the end, tried on this white button up blouse from mango, really nice, but it cost 66 buckS!! so eX!.. went so SISLEY, tried on another top. red and white stripes.. it fits so weLL!! totally love it... after a 20 percent discount, it still cost 37 bucks.. gggrrr.. no money. wished i hadn't spent all my money on lifestyLe!!!! aaarrrrgggghhhH! haha wiShed dadddy give me more moneY!! haha oh well..
gonna start studying soon. so tired. haha yawN.

bimbo in action
i actually booked the first row seats for finding nemo yesterday thinking it was the last row. oh my god. hahahaa.. it was definitely hilarious.. finding nemo is sooooo cute!!! i like clownfish now! haha i had so much fun with yiting, yanshan and wanyu last night!! we went to lOng joHns' and had foOd..after which we walked all the way to happy cup and get bubble tea. been a looonnnng time since i've drunk that- honey red tea with pearls. ok then we moved to some seats near the mrt and started crapping and talking.. we talked about how ys can just fall in lecture halls and make a fool out of herself. haha.. oh well.. hopE to go out with em again, maybe after common test!!

yeah. haha u r one unique fella. like cant seem to understand u well enuff cos u r one of a kind. i dun have frens tt have e same characteristic as u

quoted by Brian
after i calleD his frend a bastard. hahaa

famous amos cookies..yummy!!
woke up at 10.50 in the morning.. supposed to meet tingky at 11.15.. ended up meeting him at 11.30.. jus on time. oh well.. yawn. the weather was just too nice.. had waffles with chocolate overload ice creaM at gelareS!! half price!! yummY!!.. lolz.. he showed me this book about a buddhist lama who reincarnated into a spanish boy 11 months after he died. the spanish boy is our age..18.. and his name is Olsen.. nice name.. yeaa.. it's a true story. tingky was such a darling..=) he sliced my waffles nicely while i was reading the book!! haha

headed down to parkway to get famouS amos cookies.. for yiting!! yummy. haha took a few of it! yeaa. =Pp went to MPH and read books.. browse i mean. felt the urge to just give up studying and just read and read and read. i love reading. oh well.. saw nicholas sparks' latest book, The Guardian. the cover looks great and nicholas sparks looks as charming.. gRinz.. bought nothing in the end but tingky bought a book about dalai lama.. cost him 32 bucks. haha

went home.. finally got down to production and coSt. lame topic. haha.. gonna go meet yanshan and yiting and wanyu soon.. but dunno if yiting's going. yeaa.. she better go.. got her present all wrapped up! haha.. ok finding nemo here i come..

till then!

emi fujita - moon river

WISH LIST
-rip curl free spirit sling bag (blue)
-rip curl tingle knitted sling bag (brown)
-rip curl hula hula denim sling bag (denim..duhz)
-rip curl heaven velvet bag (red)
-rip curl cosmo school bag (maroon)
-rip curl classic pro school bag (blue or other niceR colours)
-rip curl cyclone surf bag (blue)
-rip curl dark side school bag (black)
-rip curl fluffy mono S/S tee (pink)
-rip curl lush wallet (black)
-rip curl heaven zip around wallet (pink/red)
-rip curl heaven clasp purse (black)
suddenly, rip curl things seem nice. haha
www.ripcurl.com
check it out manz

i love all my friends
totally

cheers to aLL!!!

bic runga - sway

today
morning-11am.. yiling got a high fever.. a bloody 38.4 high!! my dad called from home and wondered if she has sars. haha.. oh gawd. pls don't. if she really has it, i wonder how many pple will be quarantined. hahahah *not supposed to laugh but..*

just half an hour ago, Mrs Pang-head of counselling of tJ, called me up. I was totally shocked. wondered what did i do wrong? i thought she was the math HOD, trying to tell me that i've been barred frm taking math exams cuz i skipped too much math tutorialS???!!! but hell no.. nope, thank God no. it was about michelle. she somehow heard about her death and is holding a session tmr.. wanting the 4/7 pple in tj to come and have a gathering to talk about all that had happened. apparently, mich had left a letter to yuliana too. sigh.. the call made me think about michelle again. i felt quite sad.. wonder if i shld go for the session tmR.. oh well...anyway, mRs pang asked me bout how am i and all... and apparently, our dearest thelma told her about me. mrs pang was saying, 'actually i have not met you before even though i've heard about you. would really like to meet you one day.' cringe..major cringe -_- hahhaahhahaaaa laughterS! oh well, i guess things are much better now.. less stress. but still have to work hard. yeaa. oh well. hope i can pass June common test. then more clUbbin to coME!! wOooHOoo!!

pug jelly rocks.

ok gotta check on mei mei now.. wonder how's her fever and all. hope it's noT sarS. tiLL then!

yesterday's events(morning-evening)
-slacked at home in the afternoon
-realised i couldn't fit into the 593 anymore
-tried my best to squeeze in if not i won't have anything to wear at night
-found out that me and liting were featured in teenage july. kinda. without our names.
-decided to go for the fathers' day celebration put up by my cousins
-the food was not bad, considering the fact that it was their first attempt
-baby cousin was so lecherous

yesterday night!
went for the rJ's party at embassy. met up with darren first. i was at aljunied and he at paya lebar. so i decided to hop on the train he was coming, and he was at the same cabin where i was!! snaP twiSt! haha.. oh well. went there, saw qianyi, dawn and another girl frm 24/02. we actually decided to move to zouk cause the music at embassy sucks. but in the end i backed out cuz i wanna try new places. yeaa.. so in the end, the 3 pretty girls went to zouk. hang out with sheila later with elizabeth and chloe and weidong.(kinda weird at first but later ..who cares)went in, it was boring, got out and got a drink at 7eleven- fcuk spirit(lemon) tasted like hundred plus. very gaseous. keep burping. haha..went in again for a short dance. before getting my free drink. told the bartender to get me a stronger drink. i think he got me a reeaaalllllyyy sweeeeeeeeet drink instead. hah.. after that my rasheS start coming ouT! manz i really hate this. make me look like lobster. haha.. went to get another drink outside(7 eleven) with darren and cornetto ice cream! hahaha.. yaWn!! was pretty tired already. oh well.. went in.. not enoUGH drinks again. in the end, shared a jug with chriS n the rest.. after that...
the real dancing started only around 1++..rip off... yawn everyone was having fun i guess.. but i wasn't high or anything. saw a few really perverted army guys though. hahhaa.. some looked cute. went home at 2++ and fell asleep on the sofa.

saw michelle's cousin at the party too. she's pretty and skinny. elizabeth said so too.

ok made some new friends, not exactly new, but those pple whom i thought i'll never say hi to in tj. ok.. made some reconnections too.
eventful day on the whole!

i love puG jElly!!!
coOl band.. love it.


Give Or Take

We use to go for coffee and we use to go to talk,
Remember times we use to share and soon they'll all be gone
Sunny days and summertime wont be the same again,
You've gone away, not fade away
There's no telling when...

Things will be the same,
You're gone and i'm here to stay
I'm going away,
My feeling will not change
Friends forever, Give or Take

First day at school wlaked into class,
To all those staring eyes
They looked at me so differently, I can't imagine why
I had to leave my home and friends, to come to this place
Things are strange i feel the pain, i do not feel the same

Things will not change, things will not change and still we'll feel the same...

mijia
i read the article bout her. indescribable feelings overwhelmed me. i saw her head(kinda). it has been 4 days long. i wonder how it has been for her family, especially her sis.. i feel that she'd have to bear this scar in her life forever. it's not gonna be easy for her and this made me really sad.
sigh.. dearest michelle, you will always live on in my heart. i still feel you here.

bad cramps/bad day

aaaarrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
huRts. big big big time.
math tutorial was a total waste of time..
need clothes for tmr, can't wait.. but at this current state, don't really look forward to anything right now,even shopping. d/l the chemistry song, 'should i stay' by dreamz fm. didn't know they can sing so well. trying to find the game which i played last night. got stuck at level 11. aarrggghhhh
GggGGGGggRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
pissy mood today. sucks.
gonna meet liting later, hope i can get a nice top. till then.. ;<

i hate pop ups.

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

Own my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

Michelle Soon Mijia
20.12.1984 - 09.06.2003

the first thing that came into my mind
why? you were the last person i expected to take this leap. you meant so much to all of us. your mom, dad and ur dearest sister. i really don't know what made u give up everything and let go.. sigh...

i still see your reddish hair, rememered saying it was not natural the first day of school. i still remember your sweet jovial smile, and remembered u telling me everything will be alright when things were down for me. remembered you teaching us japanese. At doctor lee's, we chatted happily and i was so glad to see you. u were just so normal. who ever thought u'd something else in your mind?? you were just always there helping others yet keeping all the problems to yourself. i'm sorry if i couldn't help you in any way, i really wished i could. what were you feeling before you took the leap?? why mich?? sigh..

i cry, now, seeing your picture all framed up. looking at the bouquets of flowers all around you. i see the same smile.. i couldn't imagine the sadness behind the laughters.. i knew the times when u were sad back in tkgs.. i just could feel it. i dunno why.. but i just felt it.. but i did not do anything..

i know you've your reasons for ending everything. and i know you'll be happier with the Lord. please rest in peace. i'll remember you always..i'm definitely gonna miss you alot..


you meant so much
You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky

Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near

Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain.

yiting

mandy

she's a bitch
she's no contribution to the house at all.
she treats this hse as a hotel.
she has no rights to criticise my dreams of becoming an air stewardess.
she is really a bitch.

i totally hate her.

amaZing raCCCCccCcEEE

i sO waNna joIN the amazing race which is will be held in singapore!! the last one i did with kenneth, moses and janice was jus toOOoOOOoooOOo fuN!!!!! but saDLY, due to overwhelming response, SAC had reacHed theiR maximum quota of 400 people! hopEfuLLy thEy oPen up more spaceS!! oh well.. S-U-B-S-T-A-N-C-E!!!!
yAY!!

yaWn, so tired.. cleared all my work cupboards today since 10am with my sis.. we managed to chuRn out 10 bags of ruBBIsh. imagine the amount of crap we had accumulated since primary school. hahaha.. founD many letters from my seondary sch mates and i felt so toucHeD!! lovE secondary school life most. and i realised i look better then. hmm..my sis said it's because of the taN!! oh no. i thinK i'll get some colour then!! haha

gonna catch bruce almighty soon.. with sis.. till then!!

*tireD*

dinner at long beach
food was normal, but service was slow. my aunts were pretty pissed. grandfather too. my frend's mom was working there and gave us a discount. not bad.. we had their famous crabs.. and their hot bun which tasted good.. oh well.

after the dinner
back home my stupid irritating sister has to irritate me by cutting her hair in front of my wardrobe mirror. can u imagine the amount of her dried up hair i've to clear???!!! stupid b*tch. she's her own mirror and all. THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME!!!!! I'M SO PISSEddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

yesterday's events
-went to cut my hair! fringe power!!! hhaha
-met liting and wenyen for lunch at McDonalds
-met guan yuan at bedok interchange then kinda bumped into darren
-yawn slept late

today's events

woke up, went late for SAT with liting and louisa, was the last one to go into the room and see 30 pairs of eyes staring at me!! *embarrassed*
the test was 3 whole long damned hours. and i forgot to bring my calculator for the math part. darnz. haha had to use mental calculation..was braindead at the end of the whole entire thing. looked forward to lunch though, had pizza hut and tried the new sausage supremo pizza.it's nice!!had it with 32/02 pple. felt that i wasn't tt close to them anymore. as if i was ever close to em. hahah =Pp
haha
went home and then remembered janice and my heelS!! she's having band concert tonight and she wanted to borrow my heels, so rushed down to school and gave it to her. hope her concert went fine.
going to have dinner at long beach. celebrating early fathers' day dinner. hahah.. oh well
it's raining!! gonna rain... yawn
so tired
can feel fats oozing out frm the jeans. haha
yawn
till then

last day of school!!

morning
-walked to sch again at a rather fast speed. cuz we were all running late
-found out there is a spinelli's 'buy one get one free' coupon
-feel like drinking black tea or trying the cookie spin
-liting saw me sashaying into school happily. *grinz*
-caught the last part of SC investiture(saw liting goofy smile)
-didn't see the supposedly cute SA counsellor
-had noodles>>beehoon and hongkong noodles at the wok (the so-called cute guy served me n alison)
-topped up with a lychee drink

afternoon
-so pissed when i was called a bimbo by some tj counsellor just because i drank hot tea in audi toilet (ok gross but i was desperate to hide)
-ate noodles again!! this time outside school with liting
-finally did my essay test
-saw him again. *goofY gRInz*

math tutorial
-talked bout colours with alison
-realised we used to have many dolls (barbie and babyface)
-i like purple and red
-she likes pink
-dohz

home
-saw planes flying overhead my hse (practising for NDP i guess)
-for the thousandth in my life, i was impressed by these fighter planes
-realised i've never been to any NDP before hahahaha

finally time to enjoy my 3-weeks-long holiday
oh well. time to more muggin though.. but i'll enjoy. i swear..


Buggles - Video killed the radio star

make-a-fool-out-of-myself-day and PMS!!

went to sch, ate like a pig-two bowls of bean curd, chicken cutlet, raisin bread, lychee drink...after lessons, went to town with liting n wenyen.. i made a big fool out of myself on the way there. *blushes* oh but when we were on 36, we saw this really cute looking guy who was wearing a striped ralph lauren polo shirt. he was wearing this pair of reef slippers jeM has. we all stopped at the somerset bus stop and we guesseD he was meeting his friend. all 3 of us took notice of his dress sense(cool)!! after wen yen left, me n liting went to far east and saw him again!! and he was carrying this pearly gates paper bag..he was with his friend!! oh gosh pearly gateS!!! extravagaNT!!! haha.. we were totally smitten. later we went to pac plaza and saw him at quiksilver agaiN!! oh *fate* hahha
then we made a pact to ask for his number if we bumP into him again! but unfortunately we did not. oh well, at least we know where he stayS!!(marine parade area) haha had moS burger for diNner. chicken teriyaki and milk tea and fries. tasted mos burger. haha saw jiaRong. good to see him!! he was looking for a postcard. dohz. bought 5 crystal jade buns for tmr's breakfast. haha.. bought a pair of simple red slippers at far east today..

had pMs today i swear.

third eye blind - blinded(when i see you)

yawn
sch's a pain in the ass. so many procedures before i can take early leave. yawn.
so sleepy and tired. i thought i'd enough sleep. but i want to catch a show.. any show will do.

gonna do my econ.(essay test tmr)
yawn

amazing race photos
saw xiao pei's amazing race photographS!! i look like an idiot.. haha check it out
s u b s t a n c e

yesterday's events
-woke up at 11am.. felt so sleepy
-had brunch and spilled all my soya bean curd on the keyboard
-had to use brutal force to get the letters out so that i can clean it *ggrrr*
-continued my portfolio
-realised my drawing really kinda suck but painted my waterbottle quite well
-decided to stay on in tj
-talked to liting and decided to go over to her aunt's hse for night swimming
-packed tons of things n headed to siglap
-swam for a while, the weather was greaaaat with stars and all
-bathed and went starbucks n seven eleven to get drinks and food
-did work till 1 and then slept...

treasure hunt with an amazing twist

had a really fun day today! went for this treasure hunt competition organised by nus geographical society!! each teams were supposed to go to each check points and either answer a question or do a task. after completing the task or answering the question completely, the grp is given their next clue to the next check point and a small picture which shows part of the treasure island. sounds very much like amazing race rite?? =)

me, jan, kenneth and moses formed a team named 'substance'
haha we even printed teeshirts just for this race!! cool rite? so we were all enthusiastic and eager to go for the race!! we started with a clue which has tinklebell(fairy) + bus terminal(terminal)..so the clue led us to ferry terminal. we chose task, and we had to calculate the total amt of many burger king meals. so immediately we asked the BK pple for help but they sucked and gave us a wrong answer. so we only had clues but no pictures. hahah yea.

after that we went to orchid garden, followed by parade sq carpark, then err.. to fort siloso, then to spice garden before heading to our last stop, the ficus tree!
after our last task, we ran all the way back to palawan beach and started the treasure hunt part. tough luck, we did not find the treasure box!

but we'd so much fun. haha tired now.. gonna hit the sacks. haha

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